This week, on Tea with Robin, I share about expanding beyond the stories we’ve been clinging to and allowing ourselves a greater love to flow in our hearts. I share about the meaning of Valentine’s day for me and tell some stories about my own life. This week’s inspiration is a poem from Rumi you might have heard a line or two from. Our letter comes from a friend who’s written to ask for some support getting off the edge she’s teetering on. Come grab a cuppa yum yum and meet me here.
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“A Great Wagon”
When I see your face, the stones start spinning!
You appear; all studying wanders.
I lose my place.
Water turns pearly.
Fire dies down and doesn’t destroy.
In your presence, I don’t want what I thought
I wanted, those three little hanging lamps.
Inside your face the ancient manuscripts
Seem like rusty mirrors.
You breathe; new shapes appear,
and the music of a desire as widespread
as Spring begins to move
like a great wagon.
Drive slowly.
Some of us walking alongside
are lame!
~
Today, like every other day, we wake up empty
and frightened. Don’t open the door to the study
and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.
Let the beauty we love be what we do.
There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.
~
Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesn’t make any sense.
~
The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.
I would love to kiss you.
The price of kissing is your life.
Now my loving is running toward my life shouting,
What a bargain, let’s buy it.
~
Daylight, full of small dancing particles
and the one great turning, our souls
are dancing with you, without feet, they dance.
Can you see them when I whisper in your ear?
~
They try to say what are you, spiritual or sexual?
They wonder about Solomon and all his wives.
In the body of the world, they say, there is a soul
and you are that.
But we have ways within each other
that will never be said by anyone.
~
Come to the orchard in Spring.
There is light and wine, and sweethearts
in the pomegranate flowers.
If you do not come, these do not matter.
If you do come, these do not matter.
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Hello Beloved, it’s me, Robin. Robin Hallett intuitive healer and light sparkler at Robin Hallett.com and this is tea with Robin. On today’s episode, I share about expanding beyond what’s known and familiar, in your struggles. This week’s inspiration is an amazing poem from roomie, you may never have heard the full thing. And we’ll have a letter from hashtag living on the edge. All this and more come grab a cup of yum yum and meet me here.
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Well hello there beautiful, amazing gorgeous friend on the journey. Hi, it’s me Robin. Welcome back to the podcast, whoo whoo tea with Robin Episode 76. I am happy you are here. And if you’re here for the first time. Welcome. This is where the cool kids hang out. Thanks for being here. So my friend, How is the weather in your heart today. Are you being kind and gentle. A being easy. Are you rolling with it. Are you remembering. Are you softening. Are you loving yourself. Hope so. You are precious cargo, you are really, there are no words, you are a precious, precious gem yourself lovingly and sweetly, is what it’s all about taking good care of you and I don’t just mean a green smoothie in the morning, I mean, taking care of your thoughts. You know your mind the quality of the state of being that you’re allowing is everything. So hi, I hope the weather in your heart is really good today and, you know, at any moment you could choose to practice what I just said. Even if you don’t know what I’m talking about. Oh, but that sounds good I want to feel easy in my body today. I want to feel smooth and easy I want to feel a sense of warmth and kindness. I want to let these things go. This upset go. You know, it just practice. Over here, the weather in my heart is good. There’s a lot going on right now. It has been a wild week, so I feel a sense of, there’s a lot releasing. There’s a lot of, and I don’t know why I went with that but there’s a lot releasing a lot has been going on, and I feel a sense of greater expansion happening you know as we talk about expansion and the spiritual way expanding. I’m feeling more of myself. I don’t know if any of that just made sense but it’s feeling good and it’s a beautiful day out there. I am recording this on Valentine’s Day, and the sky is blue. The snow is covering every little thing in that beautiful way sometimes snow can, but do not go out there because it’s minus seven. And that’s the real temperature minus seven, and with the wind till it feels. I love how they always say that with the wind chill feels much more like minus, 19, and for you friends who prefer Celsius, that would be the actual of minus 17, it just sounds nuts, doesn’t it notes. They gave you friends in the warm places, I’m going to need more photographs of your Sunny Sunny. Awesome, warm, sunny weather. So big question today, today is, you know what it is. Did you bring a cup, a yum yum. Did you bring something yummy and delicious to tears with me on. I hope so. I’ve got a two cups. All right, I’ve got two things going. Number one has been gave me a new Yeti thermos for my birthday couple weeks ago, a red one. I love the color red. So I thought that, with a backup tea for like an hour or two from now, and my other cook, I’ve got some Earl Grey with heavy whipping cream to touch and stevia and sea salt, and it smells like decadence, you know, Earl Grey to me smells like decadence and self care and self love, and
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it is because of that bergamot scent, and I’m getting on a tangent. The bergamot, the energy of that is about cheerfulness, so when you inhale that aroma. No wonder, you know, it smells amazing in here, so I thought I was getting on a damn did. So trc you beloved cheers to this day and to the flow to the magic to the sparkles to the miracles, and to play tears. And I want to say a special shout out to my friend Heather. Heather CS, Heather. Thank you for the love for the enthusiasm you share with me about this podcast and the work or doing you know the stuff we’re talking about here, thanks for being on the ride with me, and for all of you who reached out to me this week, it makes my heart so happy and helps me stay courageous. I tell you this all the time but you know that is a practice isn’t it. Staying courageous and not talking yourself out of showing up is everything. That’s kind of what we’re going to talk about today too by the way. So cheers
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tears. So, I was saying to you it’s Valentine’s Day, and, you know, Valentine’s Day. There’s a lot of hubbub Bob about Valentine’s Day. I love this day as a day of remembrance and awakening to love myself to practice, releasing my expectations to practice releasing my practice loving myself and also to be open to receiving love, and also to let go of stuff. I don’t need to be carrying. For me, this journey more and more is about a certain kind of spiritual love a certain kind of heart opening. Being willing and being able to see the light in every soul. Every person, I look at not always easy. Am I right, because we have both people don’t wait. They make it extra, extra, extra challenging for us. Oh God, slow many jokes coming to my mind right now. But, you know, more and more I look at it like I want to have this sort of adopt a love the spiritual love, this love of seeing this spark and everyone and inviting myself into that space to as much as I can coming out of the personal self, so much and my puny little life, and my little tiny house and my little tiny car my little tiny job and all that and just stay more in the awareness that we are spirit individualized as ourselves in this lifetime, you know as Robin as Jeff as Sherry has Tanya. Your comes with psychic beep as Kate as Josie as Melanie, you know, as Brian. You are spirit, as well as yourself, expressing yourself. So, this is one of those days Valentine’s Day where somehow that’s the practice Did I just totally lose you. Or are you like, Oh, she is my kind of where l I love her even more I hope it’s that one. So this day is the day that I remember the practices and also. Now, I am not meaning to take this on the sand and twist the turn so please don’t go there. I can’t we can’t help it if you do, but this is the day that my mom passed away. My mom passed away on Valentine’s Day. And it’s a little buyout, but at that point in her life she had finally met the love of her life or so I thought, and they were traveling together and visiting me in Europe I was living there at the time and she had a stroke, like right off the airplane. She was probably two I think she was just a few years older than I am now, and it’s just so interesting that was the first time I met her guy really was going to spend any time with him. And there we were, the two of us together, taking care of her. So, it’s a wild time Valentine’s Day. That’s what I think about it’s like this, this thing about letting go of my expectations of what I thought I knew what I thought I was going for. And also just inviting all of the love, and there are no words to describe watching that transformation process happen if you’ve been with somebody who has been passing away I’m so sorry Why am I talking about this. But, you know, it’s important it’s life right, it’s what goes down it’s what happens so this day is very interesting for me because I always remember that witnessing that those two together. As my mom was going, and it was very sweet and very beautiful. So she passed on Valentine’s Day, that was a big awakening day for me
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to see, I have done some interviews where I’ve told this story somewhere else I’ll see if I can link this up but that was a day a lot of opening happened for me a lot of spiritual knowing, just kind of plopped in. I witnessed her in the process. I had no idea up to that point was, what would happen. So, this again this day, just is like whoa so many bigger things than just did you buy me a box of chocolates and give me some roses. It represents a shift in perception and a shift in awareness. And, you know, to be totally Frank, also, to not take it all so dang seriously. That just that knowing when you, when you experience the somebody who passes the death of a loved one when you go through that experience, whether it’s a friend or a parent or a. Oh my gosh, you know, your beloved pets, and my right. We’ve gone through three now and I’m still in that place of never again after Winston the Wonder dog that’s been almost four years I believe my Maverick. Anyway, um, it changes you, it expands you, it opens you up. And one of the things I think is maybe the blessing is we’re less rigidly clinging to things because we understand the change is the only constant. Things are always changing, and maybe the prayer in that for us is. Could we allow ourselves to ride a bit more easy. A bit more gently to be willing to let these things though that come that are clinging so fiercely bigger small dramas, you know, to learn to be easier with it easier and easier. Could we could we even learn to see the humor in it to see the. The comical in it. I remember one time helping my mom stand up before she before she passed and her stroke left her pretty well. incapacitated and sort of gone. It was definitely as you say traumatic brain injury, but every once in a while she would say something really lose it. And there was this one day where I helped her stand up, and I have her under the arms and she was slumping, and after a long breath, she said, Isn’t this the pits, and it was actually really hilarious because you’re on this ride you’re, think about yourself for a minute you’re on your journey, you’re waking up you’re going through life you’re thinking it’s supposed to be one way and then the monkey wrench is thrown into your plan, and you’re like yeah, this is the pits, This is totally not what I was going for, or expecting. And here we are, you know, sometimes, all you can do is really have a chuckle and not take yourself so seriously. Last week I was saying to you that Leonard Cohen song was it last week or the week before where he says give up your perfect offering. There’s a crack where every you know there’s a crack in everything, and that’s how the light gets in, and sometimes these moments these times in our lives where we can’t control it. We can’t change it. We wish it could be different. And it’s horrible. We’re being broken open, we’re being broken open, and we’re not supposed to claim tighter more fiercely. Remember that poster of the cat from the 80s that kitten that’s like hang in there and it’s like hanging on a rope hanging on a pole, hanging with its arms in the air. I’m telling you, I would be there like two seconds, and that would be it for me. I don’t want to hang in there, I want to let go. I want to not be so disturbed by everything that’s happening, even the big things like what I’ve been talking about learning to move with life is one of the most healing and profound things we can choose to do. We’re not always ready. And that’s okay.
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You know there is no bad news here there’s no bad side to this wherever you’re at with your journey. It’s okay. It really is and always My prayer is are we just are we awake to what’s happening. Are we awake to what we’re choosing, are we. I asked that because if we’re not aware of what we’re choosing, if we’re not aware that maybe we’re afraid to be in the light, maybe we’re afraid maybe some of what I’m talking about feels a little scary or edgy or just weird. Okay, just out there and weird. I encourage you to stay open because not being okay with it means, there could be some resistance. And if there’s some resistance there could be some clinging. And what are we clinging to usually our small stories are upsets. This is where we spin around and around in the same old topics. Wanting to break free not understanding how we break free. But this is it. It begins with recognizing. Am I awake, am I aware of what I’m doing here, certain parts of the journey feel scary or difficult or we just can’t go there, all we ever really need to do is take a deep breath and relax. You’re right where you’re supposed to be, you know, you’re right where you need to be It’s okay, where you are is okay making peace with that is okay, choosing to be open, choosing to be more expanded, I, I feel like that’s part of our journey together as a love. See that’s why you’re here listening, as often as you you know that’s why you’re here, receiving on some level, that’s what it’s about for you too. So, we can open we can allow ourselves to open and not fight for our old limiting stories and beliefs. It would be okay. And it’s kind of funny because the other night, I don’t know. You know how it is you’re doing really, you feel like I’m doing so well I’m so expanded I’m so one with the universe. You know how it is. And then, boom, something happens and you’re like, Oh my god. It’s all horrible It’s so scary I don’t know, you know, we’ve just had some things going on it triggered some of that for me this week, always when number one goes back for his cancer checkups, for those of you who haven’t been listening he’s been cancer free for man, months and months now. But you know how it is you go back for a checkup and it brings that feeling. Back to you again and you’re like so. Spirit has a sense of humor, you know, this unseen energy that guides us and and helps us along like an invisible heartbeat. I do find there is a sense of humor in that, and the other night I was awake in the dark a little bit, and as often happens, I swear. This body, it can really hold on to anxiety and my body. I mean, not like my body can really hold on to some anxiety and tension. And also really be kind of shut down in that place not really doing anything to help alleviate so I have, I tell you this a lot, I have to practice taking walks moving my body, making art listening to music, not just sitting down not laying down, but moving, you know I have to really work with that. Because this body, you know, who knows why I suppose it’s all the trauma in my life that I have absorbed and been able to do anything about. Now it’s like yeah we’re working it out we’re releasing so any you the other night I was awake in the dark. And I was thinking about the dying process. I was seeing about people who have passed, and my mom who’s passed and, you know, number one, what would happen if if something happened to him.
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What would happen if something happened to me You know how it is. And also this week, a friend of ours has been going through a loss of a loved one. Somebody very close to us so that’s been feeling super sis very present. So, I wake up in the dark, and I’m laughing because we could keep a sense of humor about this stuff in a way that just is like acknowledging changes the only constant. We are all heading there. You know where I’m talking about right. And you can do it kicking and screaming, or you can enjoy your time on the way. And that’s my choice is to enjoy my time. So, I’m blinking in the dark, I’m thinking about my mother, who was German came to the states and picked up some very quirky ways of saying things so who and I always like seven. She told me somebody in our family who had passed away kicked the bucket. That was how she told me to kick the bucket. And she said something like, you know, lots of us feel like kicking the bucket, and we’re all going to kick the bucket that kind of one of those great parenting pep talks that you get, and she just thought she was saying, like, you know, saying it the way you say it. So, I find that hilarious. Even as a seven year old, I have that. I know the light was on inside me and I had that sparkling humor in me that just chuckled about it too It did somehow that was very helpful didn’t didn’t feel heavy for me though. There were so many people around me or heavy and down and depressed and I could feel that hopelessness, hopelessness wave coming for me, and I would just choose again, not every time not perfectly as you know, but it was my practice. So, this night I get up I’m thinking about my mom and it felt good to, you know, I’m still working this stuff with her out she died when I was 26, I’m 51 now, and I am still releasing her from my expectations. You know, still mad at her about stuff, and I don’t want to be. And I don’t want to be, I don’t want to carry it. I want to be through it. I want to release her, and I think she wants me to release myself to, you know, I feel bad. So she’s been coming to me more and more on my birthday she came to me and it was, I was like yeah you know I forgive you. I do, I get it. You know I get you are not just a mother, you are a mother to me in this one lifetime. You are playing the role of mother to me but you’re so much more.
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And continuing to just see you as my mom, who did a crap job, is very limiting. It limits so much for me. Not freeing her up limits everything for me. You know, so I’m chuckling about kicks the bucket. I get up. I think spirit has a sense of humor. But I would say I was 5050 at that point because 50 still feeling some fear and some realness about it all and some directness, you know, and 50, like it is a reality that we’re moving on and this is this too shall pass, and it will all pass, you know, and I go downstairs to get a glass of water, or something, probably three in the morning and I, what happens I literally kick a bucket. There is, we’ve had a plumbing issue in the kitchen so I hit we’ve been having to siphon water out of the sink, it just suddenly backs up with water from the sewer. And so there’s a big bucket downstairs, a big rectangular one of those tender buckets and where we’ve been siphoning water, obviously, so the the bucket is full of water, or half full of water, and I kick the bucket and the water goes all over the floor, and this has nothing to do with sit there and laugh and laugh and laugh, and then suddenly it hits me. This is how spirit communicates this me. This is it. This is it. It’s super down to earth, and you could almost miss it if you were not connecting the dots. Don’t take it so seriously, you just kicked the bucket and you’re still here, and you’re still all right you know. So it’s, it’s interesting to me that.
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Yeah, we could, we could go into this wave. This next wave whatever you’re working on. You know how it is you’ve got stuff going on this week. Don’t you have things that you’re dealing with stuff you’ve been upset about, how can I help you take your journey a bit bigger. How can I help you expand beyond the tension and the fear. Because, you know, this is Valentine’s Day, it is a day of awakening and remembrance and going beyond of releasing, you know it’s not just about the chocolates and the cat and the candies, because those should be two separate things if you’re going to buy me anything. One of these please. Yeah.
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And we go beyond that place, and we say how can I really love myself going forward. How can I really embrace my journey. How can I expand beyond my regular and routine stories. You’ve got ones about abundance about health, about love. What am I missing you know comfort. Success. Your children family relationships. Right. How can we take what I’m saying today I hope something here was good because either that or I’m just way out in cuckoo bird land, right. Take something here and let it do you let it move you further out beyond the place you normally. Hang. And I’ve got a great letter coming up that I’ll eliminate this a bit more I hope so. You haven’t clicked off yet. Stay tuned for that. So, May that serve you today and if you kick any buckets this week, let me know. You know, you have your own version of that you get some really powerful vision, back to you from spirit, it is the best and I’m so happy that I was already practicing releasing my fear about losing our leaving. You know what I’m saying this life, that I was right there in the practice that I could even get the joke that I even that I was already remembering my mom talking to me like that and how ridiculous like picturing her at a dinner party telling people that not realizing what she was, you know what I mean like I was already in that space and I wasn’t quite aware that I was already being assisted by spirit by the light, the consciousness that is in each in you in me, expressed as me, so may that’s our view. Let’s hope it does you didn’t done a spacesuit yet did yet tears. So for our inspiration today. I was thinking about this poem. And it’s a Rumi poem. And it’s one you may have read many times, or seen a line here and they’re going by. But this is maybe you haven’t heard the full. The full poem. Not just one verse But the full pump, so here this is. This is from roomie, and it’s called a great wagon. When I see your face. The stones, start spinning. You appear. All studying wonders. I lose my place, water turns pearly fire dies down and doesn’t destroy in your presence. I don’t want what I thought I wanted those three little hanging lamps inside your face. The ancient manuscripts seem like rusty mirrors. You breathe new shapes appear in the music of a desire, as widespread as spring begins to move like a great wagon. Drive slowly. Some of us walking alongside our lane. Today, like every other day we wake up empty and frightened. Don’t open the door to the study and begin reading, take down a musical instrument. Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground out beyond ideas of wrongdoing, and right doing. There is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lives down in that grass. The world is twofold to talk about ideas, language, even the phrase, each other, does not make any sense. The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you. Don’t go back to sleep. You must ask for what you really want. Don’t go back to sleep. People are going back and forth across the door sill where the two worlds touch. The door is round and open. Don’t go back to sleep.
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I would love to kiss you. The price of kissing is your life. Now, my loving is running toward my life shouting, what a bargain. Let’s buy it. daylight, full of small dancing particles. And the one great turning our souls are dancing with you. Without feet. They dance. Can you see them when I whisper in your ear. They try to say, What are you, spiritual, or sexual. They wonder about Solomon and all his lives in the body of the world they say there is a soul, and you are that. But we have ways within each other. That will never be said by anyone. Come to the orchard. In spring, there is light and wine and sweethearts. In the pomegranate flowers. If you do not come. These do not matter. If you do come. These do not matter. So, That’s the flow bomb a great wagon, and I’ll put this in the show notes. You just go to Robin Hallett. COMM slash 76, it’ll be there for me this is really about everything I’ve just been talking to you about, you know, your relationship with yourself as the divine and your relationship with the greater aspect, like of this universe and understanding that all is always well, and everything we’re choosing to explore and experience. It’s okay. You know, it’s all right. It’s just a question of, is it good for you or not. meaning. Are you enjoying it or not. Don’t go back to sleep means don’t stay with the familiar comfort of your discomfort with the familiar spinning of your upset with the familiar stories of your boredom. Don’t go back to sleep. You know, when he says pick up an instrument forget the books and the studies and the self help you know I’m hearing it like forget the self help and trying to bring the perfect offering, you know, to make yourself perfect so that you become anointed or somehow your life gets better. Forget it. Let it go. Be willing to expand beyond and pick up an instrument, do something different. jog that place of your heart, free. But in the end, you know it’s okay if you come. It’s okay, it’s okay if you do it it’s okay if you don’t do it it’s all okay because you’re still. Perfect, and lovely exactly as you are. So, you know, that’s the Robin way. I’m certainly not saying it’s the only way to interpret it the way it comes for you is the right way, the way you hear it is the right way. But I hope something in there sparks. A little movement for you is now. Beautiful, isn’t it. I really liked the part about the three lanterns. Let me see here in your presence I don’t want what I thought I wanted those three little hanging lamps is like, you know, I have been that person who’s so focused on, if I just do this and this and mess it up my life will be so much better, but really it’s like when you realize what we’re really looking at when we think about the light of the universe, or the, the cosmic. Gosh, how would what else would we call it the cosmic creative pulse. And you get that moment of Wow, or are you care, he realized in
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a split second, you can’t find it in the book. You can’t find it in. I had early on, a client friend on the journey who would come to me and talk about how she doesn’t have Pottery Barn curtains, you know, and you don’t have that it’s not in your Pottery Barn barn curtains, it’s not into getting a juicer. You know, it’s this is the awakening is letting yourself expand beyond what you are clinging to. So, wow, love that one. And I hope that was hope you did too. So,
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it smells so good it tastes so good. I hope you make yourself some yummy. Beautiful tea today. Today’s letter comes from a friend than the love policy. If you’re not on my list. And you would like to receive a little love note every Wednesday morning to remind you of who you truly are in this journey we’re all on. Go over to Robin Hallett comm slash subscribe and join. So I send a letter. I think they’re pretty amazing. I usually ask spirit, what can I say, How can I inspire today you know something flows to me and I’ll write about that. And this week, I got a lot of letters back, and what I sometimes noticed because I get to know you, you, you guys might assume I don’t know who you are but if we’ve been conversing. I must be part elephant, because I remember. You’re in my heart and I remember, so I also remember. And I mean this with great love and solidarity with you in my own ways. I also remember how many times you’ve told me the story, you know, this is something that just blows me away like thinking If only I had this, then I would be all right. You know, or this thing is such a struggle, and I’ve told you, very honestly how I’ve spent a decade or more processing things. When did I tell you guys I burned all my journals and I was going back through this time and looking and I was like oh my god I’m still talking about that thing but it’s five years later, I’m still talking, how come somebody didn’t member share in Moonstruck or she slaps Nicolas Cage snap out of it, why didn’t somebody do that for me. Um, you know, whoa, like I could just say you’re still going on about this What’s it gonna take with love. I don’t need to be slapped anyway, but I hear the story so I wrote my friend today and I said hey, how can I talk about this on the podcast, and I’ll let you know when the episode airs so she was like, Yes. So here’s that. So think about your own stuff, what’s the story you habitually fall into and hate we’re perfect we are so awesome. I can’t even. There are not enough words, but you know also we have stories. We have stories, you know, I should have written that book. If only I hadn’t said no to that offer. I’m still in debt. I still can’t get it together. Those of you who want to be well but struggle with releasing the story of being ill. It’s like,
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I don’t want to be sick, and yet my body is really wow, it really, really, is sick, how do I do
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that, you know, so each of us has our way where we are learning to awaken. Okay. Hi, Robin. Thank you for your emails. They always ring bells for me and remind me of stuff, like, what do I want now. You asked me this question most weeks. What do I want now, if I could put my story down what do I want. Now, I want safety. I want a little bit of security so I can relax a little more living on the edge financially is not good. It causes stress, daily, which gets in the way of my day. So what do I want now. I want a little bit of security. I want to relax a little bit more. I want to be doing a little bit better. Thank you for your emails. I hope your wonderfully well. I am wonderfully well, and thank you too and thank you for saying I could share this here, and I really know. You being willing is already a sign to me about making a shift that is so great. And there are a good billion of us raising our hands right now who can relate to this me I again. I’m always finding new edges in me that are. Oh, gee, you know, I could. Yeah, I could struggle struggle struggle struggle struggle or I could just say I’m going to make peace with this story and let it go. I’m going to just work on that for a while. So here’s something that’s really interesting. I’m in gone with the theme of telling a story that we want to set down a story that’s too small or like the story like I really just need this thing and then I’ll be okay. You know I hear it here to a little bit of security so I can relax a little more living on the edge financially is not good, it causes stress daily and gets in the way. So, that’s it right there. And if we feel into that place, you know, even just you’re asking for just a little bit of security. And you just want to relax just a little bit more, because you’re living on the edge, you know, think about how you’re working now living on the edge is kind of a cool visual, if you’re living on the edge, if you’re sitting on an edge. Let’s say you’re sitting on the edge of a huge drop, and I just give you a little bit of a push up off that edge really quick. And that’s what I want for you, you know, I want you to imagine yourself opening your arms wide and saying, I released this little bit story. I released this little bit Wish I release this awareness, I’m always living on the edge. Let me just be there, you know, let me be out beyond these ideas that I keep pedaling about a little bit in a little bit and a little bit. Let me be there. Let me welcome myself with the warmest embrace. Let me celebrate all the gobs of abundance I have now. Even if I judge it as I have been squandering money or wasting money or pinching pennies, or whatever, you know, we all have stories about the way we’ve done our money Don’t wait. Because if we had done it differently, we wouldn’t be here now, you know, but could we open our arms wide and embrace this and say, like it’s a thing. We’re going to part with now. The first thing we do is hug it and say thanks. Thanks for being here. Thanks for all you brought to my awareness. Thanks, and by now. Like Rumi said in your presence, I don’t want what I thought I wanted in the presence of the truth. The light. The highest awareness, we can possibly imagine in this moment. You don’t need a little bit of safety, you don’t need a little bit more, relaxation, you don’t need a little bit more money to live a little bit more comfortably. You could simply allow yourself to be east.
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In that creative breath and MC for once, I inform myself every day that I’m not okay. What if I stopped informing myself every day that I’m not okay. In one of the things I imagine you would quickly come to is realizing that you’ve been clinging to a story in an effort to keep yourself in a place of safety. It is the cookie is thing. I do not really get the mechanics of why, how it works, you just hear enough people in a week and sessions. I get enough letters on the comments you know I just the end I’ve been doing this thing long enough that I that is a constant awareness I have is, I’m clinging to this story, and it is giving me something so simple as I don’t like the story, I’m going to put this down. And yeah, maybe the unknown is more frightening than I realized, and I could at least acknowledge that’s why I keep picking up my story. Worry, worry, worry troubled troubled trouble struggle struggle struggle, you know, striving striving striving, that’s why I’m doing it, I know for me to. Gosh, my journey with weight loss my journey with getting out of debt my journey with. I can’t think of anything else in this moment popping in but my, my fear of losing. You know, number one, or my own life, or, you know, just not being successful. I can see this Me too, so it’s not like I’m preaching down at you from some holy spot, I’m working this with you. Why are we only asking for a little bit. Why do we do that a little bit. You know, instead of asking for a little bit of freedom and a little bit of ease. Let’s claim our worthiness beloved let’s say I matter and I want all safety. I want all US I want all release from fear. Again, that pushes us in the unknown in a way we need to really acknowledge oh maybe that’s why it’s too scary to be like that. I don’t want to be a weird space traveler. You know, I think about that a lot in terms of the healing. I know some people who are really, really. So far beyond where I am in my journey that I feel I have to work on my fear, I don’t want to become like them. Do you ever have that. So, wherever this is hitting your buttons today let’s break this you know let’s practice and remember the love and remember the joy and, you know, at the very least, like the Rumi poem said today like every other day when we wake up empty and frightened. Don’t pick up another self help book and start to read, take down a musical instrument and play. Let yourself go explore your joy. Okay. Yeah. So I hope that helps. I hope this has been super inspiring. I really like it. I really liked this episode today. And it’s Friday. Valentine’s Day. I’m defrosting some scallops. I’m making number one, a romantic dinner. That’s what I’ve decided. And if you were here, I would share some scallops with you as well, some champagne, and some candles, you’d be welcome at my table, and the and the joy I would express to you is to say thank you for being on the ride with me. Thank you for being here every week for receiving and for walking. In this way, waking up with me. Thank you for any part of it that goes in, and that you’re able to shine out and help someone else. Thank you. It’s so awesome. And of course, friends, please share this on, you know,
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if you hear it mentioned or you see me sharing it please give it a forward, so that more of us can find it. I love how we are as a collective a light in a, in a dark place in so many ways, you know, helping counterbalance some of the stories that we just need to strive and earn a million hundred thousand bajillion dollars and then all our problems will be over, and of course lose 500 pounds. And of course, you know, and I’m saying, none of that needs to happen for us to be at peace. So I appreciate you sharing this on, you know, and I’m here, if this is the right time for a session, look me up, I would love to sit with you one to one. And what else. There’s now a donation button with the podcast so if you’d like to feel called to support the work I do, that would be appreciated as well. So, that’s it folks that’s all folks. Remember Porky Pig, I loved him. I loved him but I be a video media. That’s all folks, I had it I do. All right, have a great day, I’ll see you next week, or in a few minutes. This has been me Robin, goofball, light sparkler extraordinairre Hallett, and I’ll see you next time. Bye bye.